day 4

no sports today.
food: cornflakes with milk..300kcals
coffee 0
1 piece of candy. dunno.
weight: dunno..scales are broken..:(((

i feel like shit..probably also look like it today. quiet depressed. thinking of quitting that stupid uni shit and start a life without sophisticated assholes and stupid "i know everything better " chicks and "im so smart" guys. cant stand them. cant stand studying. bloody sitting around and let them tell me what to think.
went out yesterday night with two friends. they hooked up with some guys. so superficial. the one i really like told me to kinda fuck off. i was talking to a man i dont even know instead.. his just studying the same subject. movie. an interesting person. but too old..34 i guess. threw up all night cause i drank too much. was just too depressed to stay sober. being sober sucks. life sucks. it really does. i dont even feel like eating. even if i didnt want to lose weight. i hate food. it makes me sick just looking at it.
my mum cooked dinner..my favourite meal. but today i cant even look at it. sorry.
just want to disappear. ill do a bit of boxing now..my punching bag is still my friend.